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Title : 😨 The TRUTH about WHAT HAPPENED TO ME and if I'm coming back. A RAW, HONEST \u0026 EMOTIONAL EXPLANATION
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This video was very very hard for me to film. I wanted it to be unscripted and honest, but as a result, it's very emotional. However, I've left it 99% unedited to let you in on the struggle I've been facing over the last month. I hope this answers all your questions as to what's going on with me and why I have been unwell 💗
EDITED TO ADD: I'm overwhelmed with the responses and comments. Please know I'm reading EVERY one of them and will TRY to respond to all. You have all moved me and touched my heart. I had no idea the amount of support I would get from all of you. Thank you, Thank you from the bottom of my heart!! 💗💗💗
Hello there, this is the first time that I have ever been on your platform and I wish that I could give you a huge hug and let you know that no matter what happens in your life, you will be alright and I also want to let you know that, ONLY GOD KNOWS YOUR HEART AND ONLY GOD HIMSELF CAN JUDGE YOU AND PLEASE STOP LOOKING FOR HUMAN RECOGNITION because you will always hurt yourself, drive yourself crazy and live in disappointment for the rest of your life if you continue to do so AND I know that you absolutely love what you do but you have to take care of yourself first as you should. From now on, make sure to look to GOD for everything because he is the only one that can give you life or death and blessings. I have a beautiful jewel for you!
Expectation postponed makes the heart sick, But a desire realized is a tree of life.
That means to not expect anything from anyone on this earth, not even understanding because if you do then you will continue to live in heartbreak, turmoil and disappointment, just keep doing your thing without the worries of '' numbers going down'' and non understanding and disloyal people!❤️😉
So sorry what you went through
You are a strong lady
I was put on meds made me sick
I told the Dr I wasn't going to take it any more so I am not taking any
Of that kind of meds
I pray that you won't need any meds that God will heal you in the name of Jesus God bless you always I know all meds work different on everyone it's the DNA
your in my prayers
Prayer never worked for me until one day, I just opened up the Bible to a random page, and what I was reading about was exactly what I needed to hear. Then, somehow, I found Timothy Dixon on YouTube, and prayed with him, and I felt the Holy Spirit enter into my life. I’m hardly perfect, but when pray about everything that scares me, I feel like God is with me, and now, i feel at peace, and I have faith that God is always carrying me, and teaching me to trust him to take care of everything, including getting off medication! You might even find that your YouTube channel is an addiction, and you should let our Lord take the driver’s seat and steer the direction he takes you in. Greater is He who is in you, than he (the devil) that is in this world. God be with you, little sister.
You my girl are not alone. Xox
When the pandemic first started last year, just before it I made the decision to quit smoking. I had smoked for 3 or 4 years this time round, as like you I picked it up again thinking I could just walk away and control it..Nope. lol.
This is also my first time watching you, and I'm very glad I did. I just celebrated my 1 month as a Canadian Demonstrator! Also.. finding you and seeing that you are 100% upfront that you don't JUST use SU stuff makes me happy ^^ You are a strong person, even more so with putting your struggles on your channel. We are stronger together my stampy friend. ❤
My husband used chantex ... He did not realize the side effects that he was having. He was very short tempered, argumentative,... He went off the medication and just started smoking less cigs. He is now down to 5-6 a day. This is great progress from a person who smoked a pack a day. I noticed his triggers that made him smoke like talking on the phone.... Don't be so upset that you started smoking cigs again it's not meth and you can overcome this hiccup in life. Here[ is to better health I have faith in you
Years ago I tried this medication to quit smoking and it was horrible! The things Chantix cause I’m shocked it’s still on the market. It totally changes who you are as a person. I feel for you. Smoking was the hardest thing I have ever done but I beat it! I used the patch to quit smoking. Hope you are doing great!
I was prescribed lisinopril many years ago and the first dose I felt severely drunk and dizzy. I stopped after first dose and they switched me to diovan bp meds. I was on it fir 14 years then weaned myself off and started cooking more from scratch and it went down so it was processed foods causing my bp problems and the fact that we started a business when my bp went high but it went down over time with changes in cooking.
Akathesia is a similar reaction for a small percentage of people on depression medication that start taking anxiety medication. There’s a rather well known clinical psychologist that went through that. People die from this and Bless your heart. I’m so glad you shared your story because medication affects people differently and we all should be more cautious or selective with what we can potentially get ourselves into because we blindly trust our highly educated medical professionals whom we should trust but we need to be involved with our own health as well.
I want to tell you that you have helped ME! I was prescribed chantix to quit smoking, and I thought I was loosing my mind. I’m an Army officer- my mind has to be sharp. I thought I’m going to loose my career, my children and possibly my life. We never expected this side effect.
I am a few weeks past coming off the Rx- and rebuilding my life.
Stay strong love- we are here for you. ❤️❤️
I'm going thru stuff too. Don't feel alone!
Mine is I'm having a hard time walking due to generation of my spine. I can't do the things I normally do inside and outside my home. Talk about overwhelming. I'm losing my identity .who am i? I am forced to be a different person and it's very hard.
I cry a lot.
I can understand your situation.
I hope things are better for you by now.
We should pray for each other!
All the best to you!
I love how real and raw you are in this! My friends mom was prescribed this medicine and ended up taking her own life. 53 and had an amazing life, wanted to quit smoking and weeks after starting the medicine she sent a group text to her children on where she could be found. I've never seen any of your videos but I'm so happy you are here to tell your story. Hopefully this helps someone else. Continue to take the time YOU need for SELF care.
Sharing you experience is HARD, but thank you!!!!
I had similar side effects from another neuroinhibitor, GABIPINTON(Neurotin).
Losing Cognitive Recognition, nightmares, shaking, and all of the other side effects are devastating.
It makes things so much worse if the pharmaceutical/medical world doesn't acknowledge that these side effects are horrible, debilitating, scary and should not have to be endured.
God bless you and thank you for your honesty.
Sweet girl, first,,you are NOT a failure! I was a "closet smoker" for many years! I quit during both of my pregnancies the moment I found out I was expecting! But, once I went back to work,,,I went back to smoking...it was a way to deal with stress. I was in a stressful job that I loved, but in a very stressful and messed up marriage! I got out of the marriage, but, depression reared its ugly head in a fury....I kept it to myself for so long. I quit smoking for over 5 years. My Dr put me on prozac...back then,,,that was the only thing they had. It was HORRIBLE!! I have friends who have been on Chantix who have had terrible experiences with Chantix, but, got changed to Welbutrin and tolerated it so much better...I will keep you in my heart and prayers!!!! You just be YOU!!! You are loved and appreciated by your community here and I believe you have a world of support here!!! Much love!! Stay strong and believe in yourself!!!!🥰🙏🏻❤
I just stumbled across your YouTube channel because of the title. I was searching for scrapping for bows or something like that. But the title caught my attention. So I listened. Wow, You're an incredibly brave woman to share your vulnerability. I understand the feeling of not feeling healthy as I suddenly experienced loss of control on my walking. It was debilitating to feel incapacitated in doing everyday stuff. I'm humbled to have had help and understanding. So I know really well when you experienced stuff that changes your daily norm. Again, Thank you for sharing your vulnerability to us. Everyday gives you strength to focus on what really matters to you not. You are thought of and prayed for so you can continue to bless with your talents. Stay strong. You are incredibly amazing. Yeshua be with you.
My story is similar but different. Two years ago I was watching TV with my hubby and my arms and legs began flailing uncontrollably and I couldn't put a sentence together. We went to an ER type of place and I couldn't even check myself in. I was admitted to the hospital for 10 days. What was my problem? I had severe indigestion for a couple weeks and took 7-8 Tums daily. In layman terms I say I OD'd on Tums. To this day, I can't always find the words I need during conversations. I used to be in Customer Support. Finding my words were important. I did quit my job for other reasons but the loss of words was part of the reason. I understand you feeling like you need to get yourself back in the game. Stay strong. You are a powerful woman. Thank God you also have a supportive hubby...like I do. God bless you. I've never seen your videos but I look forward to the future.
That med is not right. My uncle took it and my dad picked him up on the side of the interstate bc he didnt know anything about himself but remember that David in his phone was his brother and good. He faught with nothing once bc he was in the floor sitting and leaned up against his closet door and he has long hair and some got wrapped and stuck a little in the door but he knew someone or something had him by his hair and he couldnt get free. Like it was scary how bad this made him. He doesnt smoke but that toxic stuff is not for the faint of heart bc it's another level. So sorry you had a bad time too. Hang in there you can only do best and nobody can judge what best is suppose to be. Hugs
Well I am not subscribed to your channel but your video popped up after one had finished so I watched, and I would like to say congratulations on taking control of your life, and at the same time I am so sorry for all the suffering you went through to try and better yourself, what terrible reactions you had and they must have scared you to death. You seem very determined to quit and I applaud you for that, so good luck to you, and may the hardest part of this endeavor be over.
I just saw this video and I was very touched. I also have struggled with quitting smoking. My doctor gave me Chantix and I also had severe reactions. Per my doctor's advice I stopped taking it and can try again in 6 months. I am so scared to try again because of how horrible it made me feel and hard it was to get through the day. You are an inspiration and I know that I can try to find a dose that will work for me. Thank you for sharing your struggle.
I just fell upon seeing your video. I hope that you are doing well. I am going to try and find you! There is so much pressure on us in this world to keep up this appearance that everything is okay. I am a reformed smoker myself so I know that it is something that you really want to do in order to stop. Be proud of yourself. Every day is a new day and you will beat all of this. I wish you all of the best.
Your video touched me.
I suffer from Rheumatoid Arthritis and Lupus and I am a smoker.
I have been on a couple of medications for the autoimmune disease and have side effects like you have had.
I think smoking is making it worse.
Thank you for giving me the strength to talk to my doctor about medications to help me quit.
You are not alone.
I'm calling my Dr. on Monday to ask for help.
I hope you are doing better. I have been where you are. Seldom suffered from anxiety and suddenly Covid school closures triggered something in me I thought I was dying. I couldn’t sleep, I’d wake up and couldn’t breathe. Vertigo. I went to the dr and he said it was anxiety/panic attack.
Bless your heart. you know, you do not need to feel like you're responsible or feel like you're letting us down. Your first concern is YOU. Take care of yourself. I know your family is worried about you. We are all praying for you and your family. Maybe you should see another doctor. I don't know, but know this God knows what you need to do, so ask Him. I will keep praying for you. I know this is five months old...maybe you're back to normal. Keep on keeping on.
Oh my gosh sweetie , I am a new demonstrator and have no idea where to start. Your story has touched my heart so much. What a journey you are on. I am brand new diabetic, you have inspired me to keep on my path and keep away from all that food Im not supposed to eat. You have inspired me to keep putting one foot in front of the other. Smoking oh my you can do this. Keep up the good work stay on your path to recovery. As I will, loosing almost 100 pounds seems like its gonna take forever but I can do this. As you are. Crafty hugs and Im a new subscriber
I don’t know you, but your video popped up for me today. I am also a demo and my husband has been through the Chantix regimen. Please know that because of Chantix and after being a smoker for over 30 years, he has finally quit and it’s been almost three years now. I hope you are doing well, and yes, YOU must come first. 💜💜💜
You have nothing to be ashamed of. As far as I'm concerned, I think, your doctor should have advised a different way to go. I quit in the mid 90's using the patch and classes. Luckily, it worked and I never smoked again (knock on wood). I don't see any reason why you can't stop using it and try something safer. The only person you owe anything to is yourself. You can't give your best self, until you are your best self. So, just take the time you need and do what you have to do, to be happy and healthy. You have a lot of people rooting for you. <3
Addictions are very, very difficult to kick. Both my parents smoked since they were teenagers(when they were teenagers in the 1940’s, there were NO health concerns regarding smoking). My therapist told me that nicotine is more addictive than crack cocaine!! Imagine that! And back in my parents youth, cigarettes were even more lethal. My mother quit at 44 and my father at 68 but they both died of small cell lung cancer. My mother died at 65 and my father died at 76. I have never smoked but I have battled alcoholism for years...just like my Dad and his mother. I quit in 1993 with the help of an outpatient rehab program and I have been sober ever since. My children were young and it was tough but I have showed them by example that it can be done...one day at a time. As many of the comments here have said, it is important to tell your story. Others gain strength from hearing they are not alone. You will probably never know how many lives you have touched and helped. Good luck and Godspeed.
As a former smoker, I don't think people understand the power of that addiction. I've never done any kind of drugs, but I understand it's power, and it's the most difficult process you'll ever go through. I've started and tried to quit so many times in my life that I've lost count. Don't let anyone make you feel bad, you're stronger than you realize💪
I've smoked most of my life (I'm 66) I've tried chantix twice. It works with will power too. But the side effects with my anxiety and depression caused me to always go back to smoking. You're not alone. Please don't beat yourself up with negative thoughts. You've got this and if you don't just try again. Chantix messes with the hypothalamus. This is where you receive joy and happiness. No one can be happy when your hypothalamus is being blocked.
I'm praying for you to have the best outcome and health. 🙏💞
Thank you for sharing your experience.
My father, who died of lung cancer in 1984 at age 69, taught me many things. One of them was that tobacco is addictive to some people. He was a brilliant man but smoked from childhood until he was too sick to be able to drive to the store to buy cigarettes. Had it not been for cigarettes, my children would have had their grandpa as they grew to adulthood. What a waste.
I wish you every success in controlling your addiction so that you can fully enjoy your life.
It is saddening to me that you had any embarrassment. Addictions are tough. Smoking is one of the hardest habits to break. It is quite easy to see that a smoking addiction falls into the category of a disease. I had 12 years of sobriety under me. Awesome feeling. 5 years ago I fell down and relapsed. Back up to almost 4 years and I know that I have to continually keep my triggers at bay for fear of relapse. I am a smoker as well. I take Chantix not to quit, but it helps me to cut way back. I could never take an am dose. I take 2 at night. There are a lot of resources for quitting smoking. Although if you are still heavily stressed may not be healthy to even attempt quitting. Welbuterin (sp) was approved as a quit smoking medication many years ago. Maybe talking to your Dr about other options would be an option for you in the future. A good support system is a blessing. Prayers. If you need an ear I am here.
This is the first time I have ever seen you.
I am SO PROUD of you! Your human. Don't let anyone ever put you down. I must ask do you believe in Christ and what He has done. Salvation first. Because God will take care of you and He will help you through all things. I don't mean to sound like a Jesus freak but I care about you. Again I am So very proud of you. Your sister in Christ. Moppin
WOW! I dont even know your name, i too stumbled upon your page. Im Jackie. Like others here in the comments, one i am a registered nurse of 10 years, i struggle with mental health. Its worse when the nurse cant even figure out what is going on with herself. Thank you. Thank you Kindly for being so brave!! I have been told so much over the years, JAckie dont spread your personal stuff on facebook. Mental health is not something you share over social media"...
Thanks to you and this video, just now, at this very moment. I am INSPIRED BEYOND BELIEF and i THANK YOU!
Its not personal business spreading to me, this isnt posting "At the Gyno" with a pic of my feet in stirrups.....Right? I think it is people not understanding. People like me, Not brave enough to make a video on so many different things, ideas, that run through this noggin of mine. Things that could mean so much and bring so much inspiration to others. Now I know how I will finally "suck it up buttercup" and share!! Hope this makes sense.
I had a SUPER SIMULAR experience with 2 other prescribed medications, today, 6 weeks in/later, I take no medications and Still fight the fight. But Better. Happier. Brain Happier too. I cant wait to SPREAD THE LOVE! Again, thank you
Hi, you are and will be fine, we are all behind you here. I to am asthmatic and smoked, I tried Champix and yes made me feel really dizzy and sick so stopped taking it. That was years ago, I have now quit smoking but did it on my own, you will do it when you are ready, don’t give yourself such a hard time you will get there. I’m with you, this last year with the pandemic seems to have made us all struggle really badly with stuff that would usually be ok to cope with. X
This is the first time I've met you, and I can see what a wonderful person you are. Thank you for sharing your struggles. We all go thru stuff in life that throws us off balance...the gift is what we learn from these times. It's not easy but dang you're so strong!!! Bless you for sharing this.
Beautiful, Strong Woman~be proud of yourself and all that you've achieved🦄 Don't listen to haters, they only want to bring you down.
My ex took Chantex to quit smoking and became so mad and aggressive, it became a very difficult time. It was like living with a totally different person. So don't be embarrassed, be assured that others understand what you've went through and that your experience can help caution others who may be thinking about quitting and trying this medication. Too many times we just accept that medicine will help us and don't worry about negative side effects. I'm sorry you went through so much before being taken off the medicine. In my personal experience, I've been hospitalized 3 days because of a bad reaction to Wellbutrin (Seratonin Syndrome). Sharing your story was so brave. Lots of love in my heart for you all women 💖 Stay Strong & Stay Safe🌻
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Many blessings and warm wishes to you - stay strong and remember, on those days when it is difficult to believe in yourself, we all believe in you enough for you. The struggle is so very real, but so is the support and love surrounding you. Rock on girlfriend, YOU GOT THIS!!!